Thursday, March 18, 2010

I'm having a "I hate my kids" day

I don't like losing my cool with my kids.  You may not know it by watching me parent, but I really, really, don't.  But today?  Yeesh.

Evie woke up about 30 minutes before the alarm was to go off.  This always irritates me, cause 9 times out of 10, she doesn't go back to sleep.  So neither do I.  Plus she was simply cranky.  Whatever, I can deal with that.  The early rising makes me move around the order that I do things in the morning and generally means that I will be rushed and running late.  Today was no exception, but all of that happened with her following me around fussing at me.  It took a lot of strength to not kick her off my pant leg like a puppy.

Then the monster woke up.  Good god that child can be an asshole in the morning.  After fighting with her over clothes, and breakfast, and her hair, I had to listen to her tell Mike that I "was yucky" while he was trying to get her to come apologize to me. 

So, now completely on edge, I ventured out into the world that many parents find themselves in.  The one where your behavior is actually provoking the behavior from the kid that you know is going to piss you off.  Lots of parents don't see it while it's happening to them.  Which makes it worse that I do, and still continued to go down that road. 

When I finally got them loaded in the car, I had to listen to Evie scream most of the way. 

I'm pretty sure I gave Evie whiplash while passing her off to Elba and pulled Layla's arm out of socket by pulling her up the stairs as fast as I could. 

Parenting FAIL.

2 comments:

  1. I had the SAME afternoon. The first go at naptime failed so I carried Marcus out of the dim bedroom into bright light and plopped him on the floor and walked away. Of course this pissed him off so he started screaming which in turn made me more pissed off. ugh. big time fail.

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  2. Thank God I'm not the only one. I have often wondered how in the hell I can get so frustrated by a gorgeous little baby, especially one for which I prayed for YEARS. I've had plenty of fail moments, too. Thanks for sharing, April!

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